Wednesday, March 10, 2010

H is for Hidden

H is for Hidden

While I am attempting to keep the appearance and content of this blog "light-Hearted & lovely," there are just some things about life that are Hard. Some where on this life journey, I also picked up the idea that I should try and Hide my short-comings and weaknesses, in order to maintain a strong exterior. So revealing my messy interior does not come easily.

However, for several years now, I have held the conviction (if not always the courage) that bringing Hidden thoughts, fears, failings, hurts etc... in to the light is the only way to gain Healing and also, Hopefully, encourage and bless others experiencing similar difficulties.

So now, I must reveal to you that I possess another Hidden blog. It has no link on this blogsite, nor does its name appear on my profile. I am not ashamed of it. In fact, it is deeply personal to and reflective of me. I just felt like doing something different with this fresh, new blog. To understand my "secret" blog, you will need to know a little bit about me.....

I trust there is a real and loving God who cares intimately for me and has a unique purpose in and for my life. Over the past year, I kept a blog of my Heart questions, ponderings, and struggles as I have walked through a season of depression. I do not claim to hold all, or any, of the answers related to depression... the whys, the causes, the chemistry, the convictions. I only know what it has been like for me and what I have learned. Others may have a completely different experience and understanding. We are none of us alike. So while we may share common pain, confusion, apathy, or numbness; there are no "cookie cutter solutions" or "pat answers."

The name of my unseen blog is Hidden Darkness. If you are curious, you are welcome to click the link and wander around. (The link places you at the beginning.)

"I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD..." Isaiah 45:3 (The Bible)

I can't believe that when I initially published this post, I totally left out the H word Hope. I have hung my heart on this word many a time.

Alphabet Thursday is Hosted by Jenny Matlock at on my tangent.... You can find Heaps of other Happening H posts here.

Thank you to Swamibu and Flickr Creative Commons for the Dreaming of Diamonds image.

Jenny Matlock


  1. Thanks for the visit to my blog, I enjoyed yours and wish you much happiness where you are. I love the photo of the cat above! :D

  2. I plan to visit your hidden place. I've been thinking of doing the same. I find it difficult to be totally forthcoming on my blog since my family, friends, and even my boss, read it. I give you kudos for your courage!

  3. Such a wonderful "H" post...truly from the Heart...just loved your Haiku...Thank You...Blessings

  4. Lovely post .... and you have been HIDING from me? lol

    Happy Thursday!





  5. I can totally related to all your feelings and thoughts in this post, Stephs! I started Raw Thoughts and Feelings just for those reasons. I need a space for myself to come out and live.

    Wonderful post! I'm glad you reveal your hidden secrets..

  6. I'm going to go over and read the blog later when I can really concentrate. I've been thinking about doing the same thing to have something hidden. I've got a lot going on and I think it's starting to come out on my regular blog. Thanks for sharing.

  7. That is AWESOME! We are not hear to judge one another, we all have something different to offer. I started a blog, well first many people encouraged me to do just that, and second because I needed a place to express and create...I have found just that!!~ You go girl!!~

  8. sorry I had a typo should have been HERE not hear, please do not judge my spelling or grammar I would sure get an FFF!!~

  9. it's fun to have some things that are hidden :D

  10. What a great way to hide the letter H. Thanks for stopping by..

    Happy Thursday..

  11. Very good post! I wish you all the best in the days ahead.

  12. Doesn't it feel a little better when you don't have to hide? i mean it always does for me ... and i understand .... i mean i truly understand.
    and hey, i just noticed your ATC link ... i love ATC's! I amd doing a swap next weekend so i hope to spend the weekend creating some!

  13. Lovely post, thanks for sharing your heart :) !

  14. I think writing things down, even in blogs, has certain healing process, I know when I write something that bothered me, I write it down and that is a form of release even if no one reads it

    so, great to know people still write their heart's content even if it won't get read

  15. Thank you for visiting my blog.Your H word is nice.I'll pop over your Hidden blog.

  16. Thank you so much for sharing with us your 'hidden' blog. I already popped over for a while but I need to stay much longer!!!!
    I n my early childhood I was a believer, but I lost teh way to gOd in my adolescence . My mother died when I was 16 , she was very ill and I found That God was a sadistic to let suffer someone like my mother. Although my father and the others say that He had a meaning with all this , I found him a sadistic. Getting older I am searching for spirituality;;;;;believe???????? So maybe your blog can help me.........

  17. Thank you for your kind words. I do think secrets are fun, but also, in this case, writing things down and sharing my heart has been cathartic. It's nice to see that others can relate and I appreciate the encouragement.

    I do believe there is a God and he loves each one of us. I think he's big enough to hear all that's on my heart. I am on a life journey.

    I am grateful for you being willing to share even some small or large part of it via cyberspace.

  18. Good morning. I, too, have a hidden blog. It is my diary of worry and angst and sickness and all the bad stuff I need to vent out of my heart.

    I have bookmarked yours to read...

    And I am honored that you are sharing your pain.

    I do truly believe that in the telling is part of the healing.

    It is a philosophy that has worked well through my life.

    Bless you for sharing your heart.

    I will honor it a bit later.

    I must first finish reading the magical journey that the letter H links are taking me on.

    A+ for your post

    And a non-politically-correct hug from the teacher.

  19. I think you will be surprised by some of the response you get on a blog when you dont stay hidden....many people suffer from depression...I am one of them so I understand your struggles...just know you are not alone and thanks so much for sharing! melinda

  20. I understand the overwhelming sadness that can infiltrate our lives. Hang in there, sweetie, there's always a better day to come...

  21. Very Honorable for sharing your intimate thoughts...Thank you for sharing with all of us.

  22. Great and well written post. Thanks so much for visiting.

  23. Wonderful post. Thank you for stopping by and I hope that your other blog gives your heart and mind some peace.


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