And are these the type of things that should really matter to me anyway.... I go back in bed. Last year this kind of thinking led me down a dark road of discouragement and sadness. I better watch out. I slept (with a little, sweet poodle snuggled up by my side). I woke. *What is my purpose?* No answer. And slept some more. I do know that the primary purpose of each life is to love others. But I don't seem to do even this very well. I determine to get up and do my physical therapy stretches and exercises. Then take a shower. I take some time scanning the internet - wondering what to write in light of the lovely homes; amazing photos; creativity; and incredibly clever, funny, or meaningful posts that delight my mind and eyes at every click of the mouse. I hope I can honestly say that I'm not fishing for complimentary comments. And I certainly don't want harsh ones saying, "Just get your act together, dear!" either.... I need to go fix dinner. It will be something ordinary: rice, stir fried chicken and zucchini, and maybe carrots on the side (my oldest doesn't like cooked ones). Served straight from the pan on plasticware dishes rimmed with flowers, no garnishes or extras. I hope it fills these ever hungry teenage stomachs up..... Bye for now.
I've been doing some more thinking and am wondering if my issue (besides lethargy and motivation) is with giftings and talents.
Some words from the Bible to ponder:
All the women whose hearts stirred them to use their skill spun the goats' hair.... The Lord... has filled him with the Spirit of God, with skill, with intelligence, with knowledge, and with all craftsmanship, to devise artistic designs, to work in gold and silver and bronze, in cutting stones for setting, and in carving wood, for work in every skilled craft. And he has inspired him to teach, both him and (another). He has filled them with skill to do every sort of work done by an engraver or by a designer or by an embroiderer in blue and purple and scarlet yarns and fine twined linen, or by a weaver—by any sort of workman or skilled designer. (Exodus 35-36)
Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace....
Also 1Corinthians 12